I'm afraid that in this state i will forget how it feels, how terrible it was..
i was a fool..
i was so lost.
and the worst part is, i didn't even try to save my own soul.
i was in denial so deep, i didn't realize i was drowning.
and now, now that i finally break free
now that i finally putting back all the broken pieces
now that i make amends with myself
now that i start to redeem my lost soul
the demon finally catching up with me..
all the good memories
the best moments
the holding hands
the sweet kiss on my forehead
the long deep and random conversations all night
the falling asleep side by side, and waking up to a smile and adoring stares
the familiar scent
the gentle touch
makes me questions the freedom.
maybe, maybe it was better to be chained together,
to be lonely with someone than to be alone..
love... is it worth it to pay it all with your fire.. with your soul?