just a thought

i am so tired these days
some days i feel like blowing my head off so i could rest, forever
no, not suicidal, just rrreally tired

kidding, i'm fine.

see, im turning into emo bitch the second i touched my blog
well, maybe i am.
an emo blogger
godd, the name itself sounds hideous

so,
seriously, what's wrong with wanted to have it all
i want to be bad, real bad,
without judgment
i want to be good, great even
without getting an even higher expectations

for once,
i don't want to feel like im pushing myself too hard
yet, i get the satisfaction
and without being guilty to feel satisfied

sometimes i made myself believe
that i get a gift to make things sounds so complicated
i swear.